Dear Fat Girl ...
[a letter series :: the "what would I tell my former self then with what I know now" series]
Dear FAT girl ... oh wait, should I not have said that?! I'm pretty sure you refer to yourself as fat on the reg! And sometimes even worse. I'm writing you today to tell you I GET IT! I know how you're feeling. It's like hell on earth... you are a prisoner to mean thoughts more than not. You dismiss compliments as if you're not great or even good enough to receive them. You're in constant battle with your inner mean girl. You lose almost 99% of the time to her. She badgers you, knocks you down, takes the wind right out of your sail. She makes you believe you're not worth all those things you dream of. You're a failure who hasn't succeeded yet. Why would this time be any different, right?
The mirror and getting dressed have become your two living nightmares. The mirror because you simply can't stand to see your reflection. Your mind becomes flooded with everything you hate about yourself. The feeling of disgust is sad and completely overwhelming! And your clothes ... well that's just a fight you lose every single time. You change outfits 100 times before you head out the door and never once do you feel confident in yourself. In fact, you feel worse leaving than you did before getting ready. It's almost paralyzing. You feel so frustrated you don't even want to leave the house.
Sounds all too familiar, don't it? I know because I lived it, just like you! My thoughts were my worst enemy. I didn't dare speak to another the way I spoke to myself. Who would ever want to be friends with me if I did? And when I realized this... I took my control back. I learned I was no longer powerless over my inner critic! I'm here to tell you there is HOPE for brighter, more positive days. You too hold the cards and can change this course RIGHT NOW!
Can I ask you, have you ever considered your inner beauty? Do you think you're a good person? How about your personality? How you treat others? What if all those things defined your beauty? What if you saw yourself through your best friends eyes? How would she describe you?
Can we start over? ....
Dear PRETTY girl ... you may not be where you want to be in life but every day is an opportunity to take you closer! You were born into this world because there is something super special about you. You look that inner mean girl in the mirror TODAY and tell her NO MORE! No more will you allow her to tear you down! No more will you allow her to badger you about all the things that make you beautiful and unique! No more will you give her the power of your mind and over your days! No more will you become a prisoner to the negativity of your thoughts. Today is the day you take a stand! You are going to learn to see yourself through a different lens.
I'm here for you! I may have not met you yet, but I already know how you're thinking and my purpose is to show you that life is not meant to be that way.
Sincerely,
Your twin!
PS - if you're ready to stop the self abuse, I've created a free 5 step guide for you to Hander Her once last time. Just click HERE!